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I planted trees for forty years. Not the kind you plant in a nursery, the kind that get shipped to garden centers and planted in someone’s backyard. I planted the kind that grow for a hundred years, the kind that become forests, the kind that outlast the people who plant them. I worked for the forestry service, the part that restores land that’s been stripped bare, that puts back what was taken away. I’d go out with a crew of men who didn’t talk much, who understood that the work was the thing, and we’d plant. Thousands of trees in a day, tens of thousands in a season, millions over the years. I’d put my hands in the earth, set the seedling, cover the roots, move to the next spot. I did that for forty years. I planted forests that will be there long after I’m gone. I planted trees that my grandchildren’s grandchildren will walk under. I planted something that would last.

I stopped planting five years ago. My back gave out the way backs do when you’ve spent forty years bending over, putting things in the ground, moving to the next spot. The doctor said it was time to stop, said there were other things I could do, said I’d done enough. I didn’t want to stop. I’d have kept planting until I couldn’t stand up anymore. But the body makes its own decisions. I went out one morning, got down on my knees, put a seedling in the ground, and couldn’t get back up. The crew carried me to the truck, drove me to the clinic, and that was the end. I sat in the passenger seat, watching the land go by, the land I’d been putting trees into for forty years, and I knew I wouldn’t see it from this angle again. I was a planter without a forest. A man who’d spent his whole life putting things in the ground, sitting in a house with nothing to put anywhere.

I didn’t know what to do with myself. I’d never had time for anything but the planting. Forty years of getting up before dawn, driving out to the land, putting trees in the ground until the light was gone. I didn’t know how to be in a world where I wasn’t doing that. I sat in my house, the house I’d built myself, the one with the view of the hills I’d planted, and I watched the trees I’d put in the ground grow without me. I watched them get taller, fuller, the way they were supposed to. I watched the forest I’d made become something I didn’t need to be part of anymore. And I waited. I waited for something to tell me what to do with my hands, with my back, with the rest of my life.

My son came to visit that spring. He was a botanist, the one who’d inherited the love of trees, the one who’d grown up in the back of the truck, watching me plant, learning the names of the things we put in the ground. He found me on the porch, watching the hills, doing nothing. He sat down beside me, the way he’d sat when he was little, watching me work, learning the things I taught him. He didn’t say anything for a long time. He just watched the hills with me, the way he’d always done, waiting for something he didn’t know how to name. And then he pulled out his phone and showed me something. It was a casino site, the kind I’d never looked at, the kind I’d always assumed was for people who didn’t know how to do anything real. He said he played sometimes, when he needed to stop thinking, when he needed to be somewhere other than his own head. He said it wasn’t about winning, it was about the patience, the way the game asked you to wait in a way that nothing else did. He said I should try it.

I didn’t want to try it. I’d spent forty years learning to wait. Waiting for the seedlings to arrive, waiting for the ground to be ready, waiting for the trees to grow. I didn’t need a game to teach me how to wait. But I was tired of waiting for something that wasn’t coming. Tired of watching the hills I’d planted, the trees that didn’t need me anymore. I looked at the screen, at the cards, at the numbers that meant nothing to me. He’d pulled up a blackjack table, something he’d been playing for years, something he’d never told me about. I looked at the game, at the way it asked you to wait, to be patient, to make a decision and then wait to see what came. I didn’t know how to do that. I’d spent my whole life doing things, putting things in the ground, making things grow. I didn’t know how to wait for something that I wasn’t making happen.

I played that first hand like I planted—carefully, patiently, putting the decision in the ground and waiting to see what would come. I lost. I played another hand. I lost again. I played a third hand, waiting for the thing that would tell me what to do, the way the ground told you where to put the tree. I lost again. I sat there, losing, and I felt something I hadn’t felt in a long time. I felt like I was waiting for something that might not come. The way I’d waited for the trees to grow, not knowing if they would, not knowing if the ground was right, not knowing if the rain would come. I played for an hour that afternoon, sitting on the porch where I’d watched the hills for months, waiting for something that might not come. I lost more than I won, but I didn’t care. The game asked for my patience in a way that nothing else had since I stopped planting. It asked me to wait, to be present, to accept that I couldn’t make the outcome happen. It was the same as planting. In planting, you put the tree in the ground, and then you wait. You don’t know if it will grow. You don’t know if the rain will come. You don’t know if the ground was right. You just wait. And here, in this game, it was the same. You made the decision, and then you waited. And you accepted what came, whether you could make it grow or not.

I started playing every day after that. I’d sit on my porch, open my laptop, find the Vavada casino mirror that my son had shown me, and sit down at a table. I played blackjack, the game that asked me to wait without knowing what would come, the game that asked me to be patient without being able to make anything grow. I lost more than I won, but I didn’t care. I was learning. I was learning that there were things I could wait for without needing to make them happen. That I could be patient without needing to see the harvest. That the waiting itself was the thing, not what came after.

I started to win more than I lost after a few months. Not because I was lucky, but because I was patient. Because I was waiting for what was in front of me instead of what I hoped would come. Because I was treating the game the way I’d treated the land—with patience, with attention, with the willingness to wait for what came. But different now. Because in the game, there was nothing to make grow. There was only the waiting, the decision, the acceptance. The money grew slowly, not enough to change my life, but enough to change something else. Enough to make me feel like I wasn’t just waiting for the trees to grow anymore. Enough to make me feel like I was waiting for something that was mine.

I started to go back to the land after that. Not to plant, not to work, just to be there. I’d walk through the forests I’d planted, the trees I’d put in the ground forty years ago, the ones that were taller than me now, the ones that were making their own forest without me. I’d sit under them, the way I’d sat under trees when I was young, before I started planting them, when they were just something that was there. I’d wait. Not for something to grow, not for something to happen, just wait. Be present. Be in the forest I’d made, the forest that didn’t need me anymore. My son came to visit sometimes. He’d walk with me, through the trees I’d planted, the ones he’d helped me plant when he was young. He’d tell me about the things he was learning, the way the forest was changing, the way it was becoming something that none of us had planned. He’d tell me that the best thing about planting trees was that you never knew what they’d become. That the waiting was the point, not the forest that came after.

I still play. Not every day, but on the days when I need to remember, when I find myself waiting for something that isn’t coming, when I forget that the waiting is the thing. I sit on my porch, open my laptop, find the Vavada casino mirror and sit down at a table. I play the way I learned to play in those first weeks, when I was learning to wait without needing to make something grow. I make decisions. I accept the outcomes. I let go of the need for a harvest. I think about the trees I planted, the forests that are still growing, the ones that will be there long after I’m gone. I think about the game that taught me to wait without needing to see what came. I think about the Vavada casino mirror, the door that opened to something I didn’t know I was looking for. A game that asked me to wait without knowing. A game that asked me to be patient without needing to harvest. A game that taught me that the only thing that matters is the waiting itself, the being present, the acceptance of what comes whether you planted it or not. I spent forty years planting trees that would outlast me. I’ve spent the last five learning to wait for the forest I’ll never see. And that’s the best thing I ever planted.